Walking Your Own Path
If you're anything like me, you had your whole life pretty much planned out by the ripe old age of about 14. You knew exactly who you were going to marry. When and where you were going to marry them. How many kids you were going to have. And what job were you were going to succeed in because you knew at that age you could do absolutely anything and everything you put your mind to. Life, through the eye's of my 14 year old self....was perfect.
Boy how I wish I could turn back time and give my 14 year old self a big pep talk!
As a grown woman, now at the age of 37, I have an undeniable love and appreciation for the truly innocent minds of our young people. I cherish the moments offered to me when I can observe the wonderful art of play, and honest conversations. Where creativity is endless, and imagination is free to soar.
Like yourself, I was obviously blissfully unaware of the road that lay ahead of me at 14. I never knew that I would have to overcome one of the greatest sadnesses in life. Fight indescribable grief. And battle undiagnosable ailments. I also never knew the incredible amount of love and happiness that was to come in my life either.
In 2012, the trajectory of my life changed. My normal, happy little life as I knew it was very quickly ripped away. It was from this moment, I no longer knew who I was in this thing called life. It is only in very recent times, that I can now reflect upon my journey, and acknowledge my experiences. With the dust having settled, I realise that my story has changed the shape of who I am as a person forever. I most certainly am not the 14 year old dreamer that I once was. And no longer am I the 20 something go-getter that thought she was invisible. I am now the 30 (closer to 40..) year old believer. I believe that nothing is given to us in life that we truly can not handle. I believe that the mind is the most powerful tool on earth. And I believe that life...is a beautiful, precious gift, never to be taken for granted.
Today, I can honestly speak these words from the heart; "I am thankful for my hardships. And I am thankful for my unique experiences in life thus far." For without everything that I have had to face, fight, love and hate, I would not be who I am today. This is why I connect with Ralph Waldo Emerson's quote: "Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path & leave a trail." I no longer want to 'fit in,' and conform to the expectations of society. I want to be the author of my own story. I want to create my own trail in life. And yes, like everyone, I don't know what's around the corner. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. But what I do know, is that what comes my way, I will tackle it with the understanding and knowledge of who I am as a person, filled with appreciation and gratitude for my life lessons so far.
So, I leave you with this question to ponder....
What path will you leave? And what trail will you create?